It’s Been A Long Long Time Since I Felt That Way

I know.

Reasons:
1. My (not so) new job. So, I’m a full time computer technician, servicing about 400 computers. When I took the job, I guess I misunderstood the time commitment involved. I kinda thought it’d be similar to my previous job, which allowed time for blogging, chatting with friends, looking up recipes, etc. For the past 4 months, I havent had time for any of those things and I’ve been working late, working at home in the evenings, working on the weekends. It was quite the change for me and required a great shift in priorities. 

2. Me. I havent been in a very good place lately. And every time I think about blogging, it gets depressing. And lets be honest, you dont come here to read woe is me stuff. But my internal world that no one ever sees has been high in the woe. Aside from job stress, I’ve just been feeling unhappy with my life (and yet so smiley, I know). Some of you might agree, but becoming a parent definitely seems to highlight and bold out the failures and shortcomings in your life. I want so badly to be great for the greatest thing in my life. So, I’ve been trying to deal with those things on my own and its been wearing me out. Like I said, woe.

3. Its hard to start over. I couldnt figure out a good way to start posting again. Its not like I could jump back in like I hadnt been gone for 4 months. But here I am anyway. Mostly because purplesabrina.com was up for renewal and I couldnt bear to part with it.

So there you have it. You probably wont think those reasons are good enough. I cant promise there will be another post tomorrow, or the next day, but I did want you to know I’m still alive and this is where my life is right now. Oh, and its my birthmonth. Just so we’re clear, I am a-okay with turning 30. That said, I’m not interested in celebrating too much. Unless it involves going to bed early, sleeping in late, trips to NYC,  red hair dye, and a housekeeper. (sounds like I want to be a movie star, heh). oh, and cake.