Dearest Baby of Mine,

Today is my birthday, and I want nothing more than to see your face. Which is saying a lot. Cause normally I just want presents and cake. But today, I would trade all of those things, every bit of cake in the world, and every present I’ve ever gotten ever, just to know a little something about you. Like, when is your birthday? And what was that day like for you? What was I doing, not knowing you were being born halfway across the world? What is your name and who named you? Do you smile easily or are you scared right now? Have you discovered your hands yet? Do you like to take baths? Whats your favorite song or rhyme? Do you enjoy being read to yet? Do you like to take walks outside? Cause I would even walk outside for you if you enjoyed it. I just want to know you, my sweet child. I want to celebrate your day. I want to call you by name. I want to make you smile. I want to hear you clap. I want to splash in the tub with you. I want to sing to you and hear you coo in return. I want to cuddle with you and read you stories. I want to stroll outside with you, enjoying you so much that I forget about the grass and the bugs.
I know I have to be patient, it will be awhile before I can do all those things with you. Today, I just want to see your face and learn a little bit about you. That would be the best gift in the whole wide world.
But if it doesnt happen today, that would be okay too. Because I know that today, God is preparing me, and preparing you, for that special day. And it doesnt matter if it happens on the 22nd, or the 26th, or the 18th. But soon would be nice.
Darling baby, I love you so much. I dont even know what you look like and I love you more than anything. And its amazing to me that love can grow more than this. I cant wait, I’m so excited to love you more!
With all my heart,
Mom (Awmahnee)