Change Will Do You Good
Pretty much every friend of mine that has had a baby recently, has (in one way or another) said “Everything changes when you have a baby.” Which is something I think “yeah yeah, I know.” and then list in the head all the things I refuse to let change. Thankfully, since our referral, I’ve begun to loosen my grip on some things. I’m okay with the fact that I wont sleep like I do now. Ever again, apparently.
3 Changes I’m Okay With
1. Lack of sleep, forever and ever, amen.
2. Taking 20 extra minutes just to get out of the house.
3. Turning down the tv.
3 Changes I’m Not Okay With (but hope to be soon)
1. my relationship with Steve
2. eating healthier, but not as regularly
3. watching less tv
3 Things That Will Not Change (I hope)
1. my service/involvement at newhope
2. the basis of my friendships
3. my baking habit
I feel like the things I dont want to change need more explanation. I know these things will not remain exactly as they are now. I’m willing to be flexible. Perhaps I wont be able to serve as much, or bake as much, or hang out with my friends as much. But I will likely sacrifice more sleep to maintain these things and keep them as close to what they are now. The good thing is, the majority of my friends go to my church and eat what I bake. 
The only change I didnt mention is the one that plagues me the most. Its probably kind of silly, and I’m sure I’ll figure out a solution eventually. I’m trying to figure out our evening schedule, once I go back to work. And mostly, how can I fix dinner, and spend time with AJ. Its a hard one to juggle. I know, for Steve and I, we’re better if we eat before 8pm. But now, just on my own, I usually cant get a fresh meal on the table before 7pm. There seems to be no way to do that, and pick up a baby from day care, spend some time loving on him, feed him dinner, get him ready for bed, love on him a little more. Do I give up home cooked meals? Do I cook a big meal on the weekend and eat left overs all week? Do we resort to cereal? Do I venture out and do Dream Dinners, even when I dont like 75% of the things on their menu? Yeah, it’ll be a tricky one. I’m interested to see how it works out.
And thats how I feel about change.