It seems like it would contradict itself, but every day that goes by, it is both more likely and less likely, that we’ll get a referral.
On one hand, its been 52 days since we went HSTK. Everyone before me on my very incomplete list has received their referral. We’ve GOT to be next.
And then on the other hand, once they’ve referred all the babies born in 2006 (and, unfortunately, we have no idea how many there are) there will be a 5 month hiatus and we should not expect a referral till after June. Which, I’m sure you know, would SUCK.
So, everyday, I wake up… and depending on my level of optimism, think “It’s GOT to be today!” or “We’re NEVER going to get a baby. I want to die.”
Its a rollercoaster. And we all know how I feel about those.

I totally wasnt planning to go the fancy name brand route with baby products. Though I’m a big fan of Italians in general, I had no reason to buy their expensive products. In fact, when I saw my cousin pushing a Peg Perego stroller (a few years back), I secretly scowled at the fact that she spent twice as much money for just the name.
And then I started doing some research. And though I’d still be confortable pushing a Graco Quattro, I became most interested in the Peg Perego Pliko P3 and the Inglesina Zippy. Once I realized that the Peg Perego had a A rating in my Baby Bargins book, I decided to put it on my list.
But a new one is still more than I can afford. So, I found a used one, on Craigslist. And I’m picking it up tomorrow. I went with a lovely neutral black and silver. I will definitely give a full on review once I have a chance to use it (hint hint, phones).
This is my first baby related purchase in months. In the beginning, I was shopping like crazy. But when things slowed down, I was too depressed. Now that I’m living by “any day now!” its time for more shopping.
Next on the list, a Britax Marathon carseat, a pack n play and a crib!

I had a dream last night that we got the call, and the referral was for twins. Twins! I’m sure every pregnant woman has the “what if its twins?!” freakout and this was mine. I dont even know if they can refer twins without you specifically requesting it. But man did I wake up freaked out. Two of everything?! Holy cow.

I’ve become pretty active on a message board with a lot of women that are adopting from Korea. Its nice to hear the stories of families that have been where I am, or where I hope to be. Its nice to share in the happiness of a referral, and even nice to be a support for those in times of need. Though these women arent all the people adopting from Korea, they seem to make up a large percentage. And so we keep track of referral dates and travel calls, and get a good idea of how things are trucking along.
Yesterday, a family received a referral from the same Korean agency we’re waiting on. And their homestudy went to Korea seven days AFTER ours. And they specifically requested a girl (because they already have a boy) while we are waiting on ‘either’ (which usually means a faster response). So, I’m thinking, we MUST be next. It could even be possible that the referral was made and my social worker just hasnt called yet. Its driving me crazy! Call! Call! Call!

Today would be a cool day to get a referral. Then whenever I tell the story, I can tell of how special the day was, because, not only was it the day we got the call, but it was also snowing! Yep, that would be cool. I mean, any day would be cool, and I’d certainly find something special about it “On the day we got the call… I was wearing purple!” Okay, thats not special. That could be just about every other day. But still. My point it, CALL! I want the call! Please CALL!