I know.
Reasons:
1. My (not so) new job. So, I’m a full time computer technician, servicing about 400 computers. When I took the job, I guess I misunderstood the time commitment involved. I kinda thought it’d be similar to my previous job, which allowed time for blogging, chatting with friends, looking up recipes, etc. For the past 4 months, I havent had time for any of those things and I’ve been working late, working at home in the evenings, working on the weekends. It was quite the change for me and required a great shift in priorities.
2. Me. I havent been in a very good place lately. And every time I think about blogging, it gets depressing. And lets be honest, you dont come here to read woe is me stuff. But my internal world that no one ever sees has been high in the woe. Aside from job stress, I’ve just been feeling unhappy with my life (and yet so smiley, I know). Some of you might agree, but becoming a parent definitely seems to highlight and bold out the failures and shortcomings in your life. I want so badly to be great for the greatest thing in my life. So, I’ve been trying to deal with those things on my own and its been wearing me out. Like I said, woe.
3. Its hard to start over. I couldnt figure out a good way to start posting again. Its not like I could jump back in like I hadnt been gone for 4 months. But here I am anyway. Mostly because purplesabrina.com was up for renewal and I couldnt bear to part with it.
So there you have it. You probably wont think those reasons are good enough. I cant promise there will be another post tomorrow, or the next day, but I did want you to know I’m still alive and this is where my life is right now. Oh, and its my birthmonth. 
Just so we’re clear, I am a-okay with turning 30. That said, I’m not interested in celebrating too much. Unless it involves going to bed early, sleeping in late, trips to NYC, red hair dye, and a housekeeper. (sounds like I want to be a movie star, heh). oh, and cake.
Yeah, so, I cant seem to get back into the habit/desire to blog. I’m just bleh about it, sorry.
BUT, I couldnt pass up the opportunity to share this with you. Seriously. Friggin Yahoo! agrees with me.
By Sabrina | September 12, 2008 | 04:32 pm |
Comments »I totally intended to blog everyday while on vacation. What else would I do with my time?
Lots, apparently. The beach (which requires about an hour of prep time and another hour of detox), the pool (which I have not spent enough time in, but my skin currently disagrees), reading a book (which I’d almost forgotten how to do), eating lots of yummy grilled food (thanks Nick!) and sitting (a great amount of sitting). Praise God for vacation. Its too bad I cant vacation all the time.
Well, I’m most officially on vacation, so I’ve got zero excuses not to blog, right? Except I should be down at the pool playing with AJ. And, I need to start slicing up some potatoes and onions so they can go on the grill.
But before I do… let me just run through some highlights from the long time that I’ve been missing.
- like I mentioned, work has been the most busiest it has ever been in m entire life. A whole new kind of busy… lots of unknowns, lots of excitement, lots of incredibly beautiful computers. And in the end, as of when I left at the end of the day on Thursday, I had created a fully functional dual booting iMac computer lab. Classes started today in said lab, and so far, I havent gotten any horrible phone calls, so I’ll consider it a success. I put a lot of myself into this project, and felt mighty proud to complete it.
- But not so much that I wouldnt leave it. Also in that time, I got offered another job. I havent officially accepted it yet, but the chances are looking good. So, dont tell anyone. If you want to here more, you’ll have to ask me personally. However, I can say it will fulfill one of my life long dreams and finally check something off my Christmas list that has appeared for many years.
- At some point in the past month or so, Felix got rear-ended. Again. The damage was minimal, and because of my busy, it took me forever to take him in for an estimate. And now, I keep procrastinating calling the guy that hit me (he offered to pay out of pocket), cause I’m weird like that.
- I’m on vacation! A real, live, makes me feel like an adult vacation. We’re at the beach with The Tripps and our house is lovely, and Connor and AJ are having a blast, and I havent been outside once. Heh. I’ll go outside, I promise. I just needed today to sit inside and do a whole lotta nothing. I forgot how much I liked nothing.
- I’m sure I’ve got more. And I’ll remember, eventually.
Sabrina, where ya been?
Friggin busy.
Proof?
My desk about a year ago:
..So clean, so fresh, so nice.
My desk today:
That would be four, yes four, computers. All on and doing something. Often I find myself shaking a mouse wondering why it isnt working, only to realize I’ve got the wrong one in my hand.
Dont get me wrong… three of those computers are Macs and that makes me very very happy. If I could set up two more and completely surround myself, that’d be cool with me. But, they sure do mean more work. And more work means less blog.
So, I’ll see you in a few weeks.
